My Journey Comes Full Circle
After working for 3 years as a consultant, I burnt out. Even while I was the most billable employee at the firm, I still don't get the promotion I was waiting for and felt that I was underpaid for how much I was contributing to the company.
And it was during that time that I discovered self-improvement and money Twitter. I was amazed how easy it seemed to build your own business and make a lot of money at the same time.
“Make a million dollars.”
“Don’t work for others."
“Find your passion.”
These three sentences became my new goals. I felt betrayed from my workplace after giving so much of my time and soul while not receiving anything in return.
That's why I decided to quit my job as a NetSuite consultant and set out on a journey to focus on myself and to find my passion so that eventually I'd be able to build my own business, become rich and stop working for others...
But 5 years later, including 4 different job changes, I just started my new job as a NetSuite consultant... again...
If you would’ve asked 26-year-old Alex (I’m 31) how would he feel if he knew that in 5 years, his hopes and dreams wouldn’t have happened, he would probably be devasted.
I’ll even admit that 31-year-old Alex is still unsure of what to think about all of this.
However, even if I don’t want to admit it, I actually feel good about this situation?
It's now been a bit more than a month, so things can still change, but for the first time in 5 years, I feel like my younger self again. When I came into the workforce, I had so much energy, I loved working late, and I was eager to learn and just show how great of a worker I was.
That's exactly how I'm feeling right now and to be honest it's confusing.
It's confusing, because I'm neither the naive boy that just entered the workforce, but I'm also not the person who's only goal is to make a million dollars.
So I know that being a consultant is just a temporary thing. But why am I spending so much time working? Why do I want to perform well at a job that I probably won't be at in a 1 or 2 years?
I think it's cause although I'm doing the same thing, this time it's different. I know that this is temporary, so I'm just trying to maximize the most that I can out of this experience and use it for the future.
In a funny way, it's as if I had a second chance of starting over, but I get to keep all the knowledge I previously had. So my plan is to take full advantage of it.